So why did I think I could have a week of good?
Ma took to her bed again,
But for once, she actually talked about it.
She said she had 'a turn', a moment on her own, when she thought she might actually be going to die.
And she was on her own.
She said she was so terrified, not of the thought of death, but of being alone when it happened.
It's rarely that Ma is on her own, and because she is still a very independant woman, even at the age of 85, my sister, her carer, the odd time will go out sometimes with her partner for an hour or two. Ma is the first to tell anyone how capable she is of looking after herself.
But Ma got what I think was an anxiety attack, she thought she was going to die, die all alone, and when sis didn't get home at the appointed time, this obviously escalated the situation. Poor Ma. And poor sis who had to take the brunt and handle the situation when she arrived home after one of her rare nights out.
She is frightened,
She is scared,
My Ma,
And my sister.
And me.
What a week.
remember this, sugar, she's ok now. i KNOW how tough this can all be...remember to breathe when the anxiety hits. xoxoxoxoxo
ReplyDeletesorry to hear about you mams turn hope she feels better soon
ReplyDeletesav; Hey missus, a fella KNOWS y'all know! :!)
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belfast; Ta pal, she has her good days and her bad days. :¬(
Maps - Like Savannah says, you're all OK now.. deep breaths..
ReplyDeleteMeanwhiles I've got a great start to Monday worrying about my own exit from earth..
Good morning, Map. All good wishes to you and your family from a rainy Manhattan. The past week was a little good; a little bad. Just like it's supposed to be.
ReplyDeleteoh, bless your hearts - all of you - and it's true, map, we do all know - and CARE! so take all these words and wrap all yourselves in a big caring hug!!! :)
ReplyDeletemany caring thoughts, dear friend!
xoxoxoxoxoxo
It's tough Map. My mum had horrible anxiety attacks. It's terrifying for them. And for everyone else too. But... like everyone else has said, she's okay now... and so are you.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs to you, your sister AND you ma!! xoxoxo
It's not easy. I understand.
ReplyDeleteDon't forget to take the timee to smell the roses.
I understand your concern, Map, but worrying about something that probably won't happen will drive you around the bend. Trust that your sister will be there when the time comes . . .
ReplyDeleteI've arrived to highs and lows-so first, ALL my congrats to Miss Katenap on her incredible achievements and to her folks for raising a brilliant young lady...and happy birthday to Miss Helena...
ReplyDeleteAnd hugs and hugs to the rest of you all for the hard part of the week. Close, loving family is a great help...
Xoxo
I'm being a lazy bollix, Thank you all. :¬)
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just hoping today is a brighter better day! best to you and yours!
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Friends from afar wish your mother, and yourself well.
ReplyDeleteMost of us who have reached 80 plus realise how lucky we have been - especially with a loving healthy family.
ReplyDeleteI echo what Warden says and also send my best wishes to your precious sister.
I so sympathize with Ma! Someone once asked me what was my biggest fear and that was it...to die alone.
ReplyDeleteGlad Ma is better now and Sav is right; another day is often a better day. And kindly remind your poor Sis that caretakers often get it tough but some of us actually sympathize with what they go through...cause we've gone through it.
The best thing for all is to absolve everyone of any guilt and apply a good dose of hugs all around. Here, add mine to the pile. :)
best wishes and hugs to you and yours and mom and sis from across the waters today! ;)
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thinking of you all... hope everyone is feeling more secure by now, peace!
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